It has been a long, but good day with my sons and Buster

Ten to seven at night. My eldest sister Viv took my sons and me over to a place called Barton springs. Those who know me may rightly guess that I had intended to take a load of empty water bottles over to fill up and of course forgot them! Never mind, worse things happen at sea. Its so hot here for the Buster and me, that we have got an upright fan on low. That was a free gift to us from the universe. That last word I like especially if we seperate its two elements. 1st. Uni meaning one. Secondly, verse. Hmm, could be one song. That makes me try to think of a Bob Marley track, but I cant for life of me come up with the title at this moment. Some of the lyrics went, "lets get together and feel alright". One something. Was it World? If it wasnt, then it ought to be.

Ive just read that an Irish fellow by the name of Joseph Scriven graduated from Trinity College, Dublin, and promptly fell head over heels in love with a girl from his hometown.They got engaged and planned their wedding and began to dream of their life together, as man and wife.

The eve of their wedding arrived at last, and Joseph`s fiancee saddled a horse to go and see him. Tragically, it was one of the last things that she would ever do. A littl e later, Joseph saw his bride-to-be riding towards him, and he grinned. But suddenly, just as she was crossing the bridge over the river, the horse bucked and threw her like a rag-doll down into the river belowl In blind panic and in vainJoseph tried to save her, alas she died.

Heartbroken, Joseph emigrated to Canada, where he eventually fell in love again. In 1854. joseph was due to marry Eliza Roche, but she flell ill. The wedding kept being postponed, but eventually, three years later. Eliza died. Joseph Scriven would never again give his heart to another.

Back home in the old country, Joseph`s mother was deeply concerned for her heartbroken son, as he was for her. One night he wrote her a poem to comfort her, little knowing it would become on the the best loved songs of all time. Several years latera friend foung it in a draw in Josephs house and was moved. `The Lord and I wrote it togethr,` Joseph replied. This poem has been a comfort to millions:

What a friend we have in Jesus,

All our sins and griefs to bear!

What a priviege to carry

Everything to God in prayer!

O what peace we often forfeit,

O what needless pain we bear,

All because we do not carry

Everything to God in prayer.

Have we trials and temptations?

Is there trouble anywhere?

We should never be discouraged:

Take it to the Lord in prayer!

Can we find a friend so faithful,

Who will all our sorrows share?

Jesus knows our every weakness

Take it ot the Lord in prayer!

Im going to leave you now. I did enjoy having my two sons over for the day. Now they are back home with there mama and their stepdad. Buster my faithfull German sheperd is laying on the floor here, enjoying the fan - as am I - on this hot day. I shall leave you now with Gods peace.

You brother in Christ and with all the saints including St Joseph and St Albans. Peter.

o

11.20 and got to go to bed but if a couple people looking at blog, I will say enjoy and God bless.

WANTED FOR REDEMPTION: REWARD ETERNAL LIFE

Really its Fish on Friday, but I thought the above caption went with this image of me. When we look at other people are we constantly aware that God made them in his image. Now, the image is a likeness and not the real thing. Its a start though. We have to go deeper than the surface. This is where the spirit of love which links all things resides. As you can guess if you read yesterdays blog, I am going to tell you that most people deny it! Its a fact , as they do not have awareness of that which they have not yet experienced. First comes the faith, then the experience!

Now I shall impart some writing from our sister, Paula Giddings, for those of us on the journey to become enlightened beings.

` VICTORY IS OFTEN A THING DEFERRED,

AND RARELY AT THE SUMMIT OF
COURAGE.... WHAT IS AT THE SUMMIT

OF COURAGE, I THINK, IS FREEDOM.

THE FREEDOM THAT COMES WITH

THE KNOWLEDGE THAT NO EARTHLY

POWER CAN BREAK YOU; THAT AN

UNBROKEN SPIRIT IS THE ONLY THING

YOU CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT: THAT IN

THE END IT IS THE COURAGE OF

CONVICTION THAT MOVES THINGS,

THAT MAKES ALL CHANGE POSSIBLE.`

When the image above was taken of my physical body, I was as an artist portraying a small aspect of a much greater reality. How often do we look at an image and a thought pops into our consciousness we cannot really justify. When you look at the picture above of me, do you realize that this is a picture of a person working hard on a spiritual journey. A person who loves all his family. Who prays often for his two sons. Also for his exwife and his ex lodger to have a bountiful life together. For them to also demonstrate I pray , a loving relationship to my sons. ( I dont mind if my elder sister edits this blog, as I am not sure of some of its revelence!)

You know its maybe the hottest day so far here in the UK today. So I shall leave you with Proberbly my shortest spiritual quote. `We reap what we sow.` Peace and love to all of you, Your brother, Peter

Its okay to be different. War against conformity. Go for it.

Had a breakthrough yesterday in my art therapy session with Kate. I'm alright with my differences. If other people can`t accept me that is not my problem.

I am alright with who I am, fine, and I am changing every beautiful day. Its brilliant to see clearly now, some of the things I have to do.

PREPARED FOR BATTLE

I am at war with my ego. Maybe my super ego is having a battle with my ego. The ego is the force of authority. Its the moderater, but can dish out punishment!

To recap and explain further.

" The Ego"

Mediator

Mostly conscious

balance between the Id & the Super Ego

works on reality principle

creates a compromise which is mutually

agreeable.

The "ego" is always caught in the middle

and that leads to one of two things:

Neurotic Anxiety

or

Nervous Anxiety

The "ego" stems of the "id" and thus makes it easier for the person to communicate what it is that they want. Without beingseen as socially inept.

Without conflict, the "ego" would not have a role in the persons mind.

The Super Ego

Lessons. Rewards. Punishments.

Moral center

Conscience:

Reflects actions for which you`ve been

punished.

Ego Ideal:

Parent`s / caregivers rewarded or approved of

in their (and your) lifetime.

"SuperEgo" is the polar opposite of the "Id"

The two forces of the mind (Id and Super Ego) are constantly struggling against one another, thus creating conflict.

(which the Ego settles)

Brothers and sisters. This is obviously not just in my unconscious mind the battles go on, but in most peoples. So whilst most people think they have conscious control over their lives, boy are they in the DARK. Wake up, or to put it in a more recognisable form, become awakened spiritual beings and win the war.

This is why the fight to become enlightened beings is worth fighting the battles in the first instance, to hopefully eventually win the war!

Look at the light at the bottom of the above picture and realize darkness has no power.

Your brother Peter

Having three followers is wonderful. Three is my favourite number.

Good day to all who see this. Especially my three followers, Sabastuab Dolinski, Annie and am-a-sta.
A neighbour of mine introduced me to robinhoodtax.org.uk and it seems like a good thing to me. She also said look up `The Banker` with Bill Nighy on you tube. He is a good actor and he gets my blessing for taking part. After I spent six years in the Philippines and seeing some people work so hard and yet still unable to afford basic things like medicines, I understand the meaning of disparity. Also my heart and prayers go out to the street children in the Philippines and anywhere else in the world. Anyway I am for the robinhoodtax.org.uk see if you can be too. Spread the word!

WE CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE.

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~Walk on a rainbow trail;
walk on a trail of song,
and all about you will be beauty.
There is a way out of every dark mist,
over a rainbow trail.

Navajo song
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I do the very best I know how
- the very best I can; and I
mean to keep doing so until
the end. If the end brings me
out all right, what is said
against me won`t amount to
anything. If the end brings me
out wrong, ten angels
swearing I was right would
make no difference.

Abraham Lincoln (1809 - 1865)

Back to the title of this blog. You may not need me to explain it and if thats the case, then skip this bit as I dont fully understand it myself. Three is the trinity of God. Also, as far as I know its the only time we have three consecutive prime numbers. I know famous and even infamous people could have thousands of followers. Some of the religeous gurus that have had many followers, have been corrupted by thier ego reamerging and seperating them from the source of all that is.



For some time I went to a baptist church, here in Luton, England. There would be sometimes a couple of hundred in the congregation, to be almost in rapture listening to the head pastor. Now, one of the karmic Christian principles I like to follow is, to do unto others as you would have done unto you. For surely we do reap what we sow. Pure physics + more. One day I was asked if I would help him clear his garden, I of course said yes. It took most of the day and as I recall I didnt so much help him, as I cleared the garden. Being that he was the leader of the church I had to look at it as helping the church and not just Brian. What galled me though, was at lunch time he bought out a sandwich for me and went inside to sit at the table with his wife and eat a meal!

My sons would often tell me that they didn't like to go to that church and most often I told them we had to. Once though I said, come on lets leave, before the service starts. I did witness one great memorable happening. This church has a sister church in the Phillipines and one day they had a second collection to go to help the street children in Manila. My youngest son, asked me if it was okay to put his pocket money in. I of course said yes, which brought tears to my eyes, as he put all his weekly money in. It reminded me of Jesus rebuking those who look down on those who have little to give. We dont all have money to give and often money isnt the solution.


At the end of it I found my boys are happy going to All saints with me and their gran, Lola Mavis. Our little Anglican church, with our good spiritual leader, Father Richard (who himself has been made a cannon) and a congregation who act like Jesus did. The last canon I knew was cannon Jenkins at Christ church here in Luton, when I was a choirboy, about fortyfive years ago. That of course before I was sixteen and my father died, leaving me to go quickly downhill. Still thats another story for another day. Now the birds are singing and the sun is shining. Im going to take the Buster out over Popes meadow now. O yes, the real date and time here as I post this, is, 8.10am wed 28th Sept.
Peace and love to all beings. Your brother, Peter

I found a new friend and took him over the park.

Good day to you. Here is a picture of me with one of my latest found objects. My first thought was to call it Marvin the Meercat. Then it just occurred to me, why not call it, `Stuffed fur fabric` finally realizing it may be pretending to be a female meercat and not a stuffed toy, I am settling on naming it Stevie Smith. I like Stevie Smith, especially her poem, `Not waving, but drowning.` Im not going to share that with you today as it may get me thinking about my late wife in a maudlin way. Instead here is some Paulo Coelho for you.

Every day, God gives us, as well as the sun,

a moment when it is possible to change anything

that is causing us unhappiness.

The magic moment is the moment when

a `yes` or a `no` can change our whole existence.

Every day, we try to pretend that we do not see

that moment, that it does not exist,

that today is the same as yesterday

and tomorrow will be the same tool

However, anyone who pays close attention to

his day will discover the magic moment.

It might be hidden in the instant

that we put the key in the door in the morning,

in the moment after supper,

in the thousand and one things

that appear to us to be the same.

This moment exists, a moment in which

all the strength of the stars flows through us

and allows us to perform miracles.

BY THE RIVER PIEDRA I SAT DOWN AND WEPT

Oh yes, another great toy I found was an animaltronic lifelike cat that makes noises and moves. That's going to be given to Linda, a very special lady, who is unable to look after a real cat due to her learning difficulties. My sister Vivs partner Di is like a guardian for her.

Okay, I am off to the library to take some books back.

May all beings be happy

May all beings be joyfull

May all beings be in peace Your brother, Peter

Its enough to make a grown man cry! A. W. Tozer 1897-1963

The following is taken from the book, Whatever happened to worship.

A young man talked to me about his spiritual life. He had been a Christian for several years, but he was concerned that he might not be fulfilling the will of God for his life. He spoke of coldness of heart and lack of spiritual power. I could tell that he was discouraged - and afraid of hardness of heart.

I gave him a helpful expression which has come from the writings of Bernard of Clairvaux: "My brother, only the heart is hard that does not know it is hard. Only he is hardened who does not know he is hardened. When we are concerned for our coldness, it is because of the yearning God has put there. God has not rejected us."

God puts the yearning and desire in our hearts, and He does not turn away and thus mock us. God asks us to seek His face in repentance and love and we then find all of His gracious fullness awaiting. In God`s grace, that is a promise for the whole wide world.

You have read of Blaise Pascal, the famous 17th century French scientist often classed as one of the six great thinkers of all time. He was considered a genius in mathematics, and his scientific inquiry was broad. He was a philosopher and a writer. But best of all, he experienced a personal, overwhelming encounter with God one night that changed his life.

Pascal wrote on a piece of paper a brief account of his experience, folded the paper and kept it in a pocket close to his heart, apparently as a reminder of what he had felt. Those who attended him at his death found the worn, creased paper. In Pascal`s own hand it read:

From about half-past ten at night to about half-past midnight-fire! O God of Abraham, God of Isaac, God of Jacob-not the God of the philosophers and the wise.The God of Jesus Christ who can be known only in the ways of the Gospel. Security-feeling-peace-joy-tears of joy. Amen.

Were these the expressions of a fanatic, an extremist?

No. Pascal`s mind was one of the greatest. But the living God had broken through and beyond all that was human and intellectual and philosophies. The astonished Pascal could only describe in one word the visitation in his spirit: "Fire!"

Understand that this was not a statement in sentences for others to read. It was the ecstatic utterance of a yielded man during two awesome hours in the presence of his God.

There was no human engineering or manipulation there. There was only wonder and awe and adoration wrought by the presence of the Holy Spirit of God as Pascal worshiped.

What we need among us is a genuine visitation of the Spirit. We need a sudden bestowment of the spirit of worship among God`s people.

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Maybe my brothers and sisters when I was reading some of that, the tears I cried were for those who have yet to experience the power of Gods love in their lives. I can never give up praying that they will open their hearts to this awesome grace, rather at dawn than sunset. Even though if they leave it until midnight they will see God the Father waiting for them with open arms. Maybe some tears cried were for my joy at welcoming God into my everything.

I give joy and love to all, knowing that the gift of life is not to me alone.

I share my good.

I accept life completely, without reservation, having the conviction that good is the eternal Reality, that God is the everlasting presence, that Christ within me is the eternal Guide, that my life is complete today.

Find peace. Be peace. Go in peace.

Brother Peter