Some others will want to do good deeds, for other people or living things, preferring for others not to realise these good things that they do. Good God knows though and there are plenty of forests which need saving and perhaps more in need of being formed! God has no feet or hands on earth but ours!
Poor trees, not even killing people. (okay, if I am going to be pedantic, one now or then may fall and crush somebody, but what is this compared to all the fruit and nuts they give us. Not to mention all the medicines. Dang, I was not to mention all the medicines, sorry my brother Leroy, I know you need to smoke da Herb for to chill ya mind. Rasta man.
Lets get back to the majestic trees. Just standing there, still and without lots of noise, minding their own business. Just an occasional movement of branches and shedding of leaves in response to the breeze. Content to take in the carbon dioxide and push out oxygen for us and other air breathing creatures. Providing homes for a myriad of creatures, from ants to orangutans. Birds and bees seeing not poor trees, but unparallelled resources of a richness not matched on earth in city, or town!
You can call me a dreamer, but I am not the only one. Yes, some of you know that John Lennon came out with those lyrics, but they weren't his own. John would not have claimed to own them and was starting to realise - or had already - that we are all one family. Its not blame which is the way to answer want and need, it is unconditional love.
Compassion Training.
I do not know if there are any free courses.
Life is great oppotunity for me to give and hope that I will get it right. Today I may not give enough of the right things to some people and then may realize from the face I see if this is the case or not.
If you are able to right now, go to a mirror look into your eyes and love what you reflect.
You are to me as I am a reflection of Love which came to earth as a gift from God. If we can not yet see it, then it is still a rough diamond, perhaps even still buried deep, yet to be uncovered, found.
We are none of us lost, because even if we believe we are and have no idea where we are or what we are doing with our lives, our father who is in heaven knows where we are and is looking over us.
Free will. Yes we think its great and we have it. What do we really choose? If we were not influences by companies advertising then do you believe they would spend so much money on convincing you to buy their product.
Religions can misslead people into following doctrines and abandoning the way of true love.
Jesus Christ was more than hated by the religious people of His time, they were so scared of Him they had to kill Him. The truth though cannot be destroyed. Love will out. It is the only true power, because all the universe originates from it and is sustained by it! Distractions can be pleasant or unpleasant. Harmful or healing. One can laugh and cry. Life is full of lessons and the winners are those who realise that it is not about gaining stuff, but losing attachment to it.
On a personal note. It isn't hard for me now to lose material stuff. The people though, the mother that died when I was two, then ripped a gash in my heart which my head could not comprehend. At sixteen when my father died. I tried to convince myself and the world I was tough and was glad he had gone. Each cut of a razor blade was a shout for love, which I was too scared to accept.
A wonderful loss was the six years of freedom I had chosen to give up at the age of twenty two when I nearly killed another young man. I needed not only the time out of normal society, but the specialist help given by all that was Broadmoor Special Hospital. I was grateful for the opportunity and security to learn how to take responsibility for life.
Not my life, but life. I grieved for my fathers death which happened when I was sixteen. Then a year or so later, after more extensive work, I was able to mourn the loss of my mother, who died when I was nearly three years old. That was a deeper hurt, which was buried a lot deeper for safetys sake! Yet, here now is - writing to you - the toddler who grew up to be a complete being; who has so much love and compassion for all; esp for the orphans and street children I saw whilst an adult and living for six years in the Philippines!
When my beautiful first wife, Tracy killed herself during a bout of clinical depression and accidentally gave me a brain injury, I didnt say, ` God, why me.`
I was grateful for the six years we had together. Truthfully, that didnt happen all at once. At first after she died the police arrested me. On remand in Bedford prison awaiting trial for aiding her suicide; I laid in a bath and contemplated drowning myself.
I recalled the words of Stevie Smith, `not waving but drowning` and managed with the love of family and by the grace of God to get through those dark nights of the soul.
Wow. Brothers and sisters, this is a lot to share with you, but maybe also my sons may be glad to read it in a few years time. They already know about the two times while we lived in the Philippines, gangs tried to kill me. I took my sons this evening to a boxing club, as that's what they wanted to do and their gran paid for them to go. Although I studied and trained intensively in my late twenties and early thirties in Karate and put this down to saving my life in one of the aforementioned attacks by a knife wielding member of a gang that attacked me. I do also regret punching the guy that stabbed me. BUT. I have moved on and I may now be at a place in my life where people will not try to kill me, yet whatever will be is the best thing for all!
Maybe I will not be a good enough saint in this lifetime to become a martyr and that will make life easier for my sons! It has just gone midnight and so I shall close here and resume in the morning. Are you thinking, good grief, what about a painting?
Funnily enough I went away for awhile, compelled to start a new painting. I am back and it is now 12. 24 the next morning. So as I started todays block the night before (wed), it is all going smoothly. Okay now, I am going away again and will, God willing be back to finish this anon.
My art and it this work is just about finished. It has evolved a tad. Now it is finnished!
Have a good day my brothers and sisters. Know that you are loved and we are one.
Blessings and love to all beings,
Your brother Peter.
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